If you have already read My Story or just in general know anything about the past year of my life you would know that 2017 was one of the most challenging and growth-filled years of my life. To keep things brief, this time last year I was overly focused on the things I had recently lost in my life; family members, significant other, close friends, self-confidence, and my faith.
I remember so distinctively coming home from Christmas at my parents’ house, to a very empty apartment that felt 1000x lonelier than ever before. I felt empty and stagnant with my life... But in that same moment, I decided that feeling wasn’t good enough for me. I was not the unmotivated person I had let myself slip into being. SO, what did I do? I told myself to get out of my own head & start after something new, something that would give me a purpose,… the GYM.
I had been to the gym on & off over the past few months but nothing consistent at all (I’m talking once or twice every 2 weeks & then being “too sore” to go back again for days on end… mean while stuffing my face with cookies). I didn’t know a lot, besides what I had learned here and there through my random “gym phases” throughout my life, but I knew one thing:
I wanted to be strong (mentally & physically).
I also knew that strength was not the same thing as “skinny,” and strength did not mean counting every single calorie I ate… Strength meant learning to properly lift weights, to have a positive relationship with food, and not to need a number on a scale to define my happiness.
So I challenged myself to 12 weeks. Twelve weeks of finding a true routine in the gym. Twelve weeks without stepping on a scale. Twelve weeks without counting a single calorie, but instead focusing on eating a balanced and healthy diet (aka: I didn’t fully cut out the cookies, I only ate them in moderation).
When I first decided on this “12 week goal to health,” all I wanted more than anything was to prove to MYSELF that I could do this, that I could actually stick to a healthy and fitness based life style for more than just a few days or weeks. This wasn’t about anyone else… this was about ME regaining the purpose for myself that I had lost and I REFUSED to let myself quit this goal… 12 weeks, that’s all I was focused on.
And you know what? I started back in the gym, I found what worked for me (lifting & fitness classes), I focused on loving the healthy food I was eating & not looking at food as “good or bad,” & I stopped looking for scale victories… because I was damned if some random number was going to define my hard work and personal victories. The more I got out of my own head and into a positive outlook on health and fitness, the more the weeks seemed to fly by… 1 week, to 4 weeks, to 9 weeks… to finally hitting my goal... 12 weeks.
I was damn proud of myself... I wanted more than anything to just hit 12 weeks, and now, 12 weeks was only a small stepping stone to a much longer process filled with new goals I wanted to achieve.
12 weeks? I was focused on 12 more and another 12 beyond that. Those 12 weeks changed my life. When I stopped focusing on what I had lost and started focusing on everything I had the ability to gain, EVERYTHING CHANGED. I wasn’t just physically growing stronger, but mentally I became a completely different person… someone who actually LOVED (& still loves) them self.
Now, here I am exactly one year later ready to take on an entirely new set of goals that I NEVER EVER would of thought possible this time last year (competing in a fitness competition, starting a blog, positively pushing health and fitness through social media... say what?!), but I'm ready and I know if I genuinely put my mind to it, no matter how hard it gets, I can achieve it.
The same goes for you! ANYTHING you want to get out of life you can make happen. I don't care if you want to run a marathon but have never ran a day in your life, if you want to compete in a body building competition but have never picked up a weight, if you want to change your eating habits but can't remember the last time you ate a "healthy" meal... I seriously do not care WHAT it is, I just know that if you put your heart and mind towards that goal, give yourself a set plan on how to achieve it, and truly work at it... you CAN and you WILL make it happen.
12 weeks changed my life &, if you want bad enough, 12 weeks can change yours too.